This is why I shouldn't really even keep a blog anymore. I'm just too emotional and weird. But what I posted in the entry I (necessarily) deleted -- that I may be fired this Friday because of a few missed deadline on something I consider quite unfair by an over-intense boss -- still stands.
It's the termination shock, and not the stellar physics type.
I also have a plan of what I will do in response -- staying here until May (based on my current estimation of finances, I can survive that long) and then moving back with my dad.
The collapsing American financial sector and economy may very well tie into this. I will explain all of this ... but, obviously, writing that kind of entry I did when I'm all screwed up is stupid. I'll update tomorrow later afternoon.